Missing Ciarra today

Today is my birthday.  There will be no singing in the house.  There will be no smiling daughter looking at me as I open the gift that she made for me.  Ciarra was always able to make something on my birthday that was always better than anything that she could have purchased.

I miss her so much that the pain is real.  It is not just sadness.  It is a physical reaction  so miserable that it is sometimes hard to even talk.

I am blessed to have the thirteen + years that she blessed me with.  I know that.  These “special” days just make it harder to deal with.  Ciarra Joi know that you are loved and missed.



About Dusty

I am the father of Ciarra Joi "CJ" Rhodes. I am the man blessed to have 13 and a half years with my beautiful daughter. I am also the survivor of her teenage suicide. I miss her every minute of every day! I hope this site will keep her memory alive and maybe help others.

2 thoughts on “Missing Ciarra today

  1. missycates

    Ciarra you are very loved and missed on a daily basis!! I’m sorry that you had such a rough day but she is watching over you!!!

  2. Mira Pfänder

    Hi Dusty, here is Mira.
    I’m very scary because tomorrow is the day of horror. A good friend of us who maked the flowers last year today make flowers again. After school tomorrow i go with my mum to Cj. I have long school. I fell sad and alone. I don’t know how i will go in the school tomorrow. Now i sit in my bed and can’t sleep. I found this page and yes… I hope you read this and please do’nt forget Tina and you you aren’t alone. Noemi and i we are sad too….

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